Taking on Water

sunset 9/5/2016

I took a picture of the evening sky as I left the hospital Monday night, the night nurse encouraged me to get some rest and Ryan was sleeping peacefully so I went back to my hotel room just across the street with the knowledge they would call if any changes occured.  

This statue is dedicated to all the children that enter the hospital with hope.

I took this picture on my way upstairs to Ryan's room today, I admired the bronze statue and what it stood for.  A child with hope entering the hospital, that summed up Ryan even though he was an adult now.  The morning outside was foggy and it felt wet, like we were taking on water.  Little did I know we were sinking. Ryan wasn't able to talk today, but I talked to him and as I did his eyes opened a small amount and tears rolled out.  It was our last goodbye.  Teams of medical professionals tried to no avail to rally his beaten body, but it was futile.  A little before noon today Ryan went home as I held his hand.  The rest of today has been a blur, I'm in shock and disbelief.  when we pulled into the ranch gate mom said "how did we get here?" Ryan's all around, his toothbrush is in the bathroom his clothes in the drawers.  But I have silence in our room.  I can't think anymore tonight but you know if Ryan were hear he would say something funny or uplifting.  I will continue to tell stories here, of my favorite guy and I hope you stick around to hear them.