Every last detail....

I arrived back at the ranch today, it was quiet when I threw my bags down in the room that I have been sharing with Ryan. I had received a call earlier today that I didn't pick up in time, and I knew why dads truck was gone when I pulled in.  The call I had missed was from the funeral home and Ryan's ashes were ready to be picked up.  I knew dad was bringing Ryan home.  Shortly after I arrived home mom brought Ryan in to our room, placed him in my arms and I thought I might panic for a brief bit.  I placed Ryan in the leather recliner mom had bought for him, and that he loved.  His remains are still sitting there and I would be lying if I didn't tell you it was making me a little uneasy.  I spent part of the day writing a story about Ryan that I will tell at his graveside service, I'm going to serve Doritos and Dr. Pepper and invite friends and family to tell a favorite story about Ryan, and just have an organic flow.  Nothing stuffy, Ryan was anything but stuffy.  I'm not sure how the week will unfold.  Every thing feels new and like it'ts going in slow motion, that's OK with me I'll savior every drop.  I hope you can have a slow enough day to savoir the best parts, or all the parts..I'm trying to remember every last detail....