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| Ranch Road 9/7/2016 |
Today was a slow start, I moved from the bed to a comfy reading chair in the room Ryan and I had been sharing. My mom had already been awake for hours and She brought a cup of coffee and a plate of grapes to me. I sat there for a long while wondering how I would make my legs work. I took my time sipping the coffee and eating the grapes, lingering in the chair. After awhile it occurred to me I would like to do something besides be sad. It was a conscience decision to move, somewhat difficult even. I got ready for the day and went on with things, and you know I'm OK. Sadness flows through, but happiness is here also. I am just walking through the emotional waves like strolling on A beach, sometimes the waves roll in far enough to reach you. Today I'm choosing to be happy while I acknowledge the sadness of current events. I hope we can all choose to be happy today, I am sure gonna try.
Thinking of you, Stacey. In the beginning of your blog you said something about not being a very good writer . . . well I have to say this is the most beautiful writing and this blog is a great gift and a touching tribute to you and to Ryan and the relationship you two shared with each other and with life. I didn't know Ryan well but whenever I saw him he always smiled and had time for a word with me. In reading your blog I now get a more complete picture of the amazing young man he was and clearly a brave and enlightened soul. His passing is undoubtedly the most painful loss for you but I pray you will find peace and comfort over time in the memories of your time with him and the gifts he gave you. My heart is breaking for you - if there is anything I can do for you please let me know (mileage, cat-watching or ?). Your neighbor, Susan
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