Monday, August 15, 2016

What do I know I just live in this body?

Ryan & Stacey August 2016
Cancer Center waiting area

In early May 2016 Ryan was driving to his yearly thyroid cancer checkup and I asked him... how do you think it'll go?  He said "what do I know I just live in this body." I'm pretty sure he knew something was up, his body hurt, he never complained or mentioned it.  It wasn't until we were cleaning out his apartment that I noticed over the counter drugs of all kinds, stuff for coughs, aches, pain relievers, sleep aids..... you name it..... he later confessed that none of it helped.  Ryan is no stranger to discomfort, his medical history is extensive, complicated and impressive; impressive in a way that makes you say (how is this kid still alive?) several healthcare workers have told Ryan that he is one of the bravest people they have encountered. I'm Stacey Ryan's mom, and this is how I see things.... I'm not a wordsmith and I'm not grammiticaly correct.  I am trying to stay afloat in this rough sea of life, and I would like a pink polka dot pool floaty and a cocktail with a toothpick umbrella please!

7 comments:

  1. Sending you both well wishes, and a recovery Angel to Ryan. Thank you for your authenticity and for sharing this journey. I love you, Stacey!

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  2. I love reading this! Yes Ryan is one of the bravest people but he gets it from his momma ❤️

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  3. Peace and grace to you ,praying.

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  4. I went to elementary school and all the way through Jr high and high school with him. He is am extremely kind and selfless person. I was going through a rough patch and he happened to notice. We hadn't talked in a long time but it didn't prevent him from reaching out and checking on me. He offered me an ear and was willing to listen whenever I needed it. It helped me back then quite a bit! You're such a strong individual Ryan! Very inspiring! ��

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